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March 13th, 2011 (08:08 pm)

theparkbencher.blogspot.com/2009/06/how-to-meet-and-woo-nerdy-girl.html - this link makes me happy

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April 5th, 2010 (06:52 am)
current song: The Cure - Pictures of You

I've been looking so long at my pictures of
you that I almost believe that they're real
I've been living so long with my pictures of you that
I almost believe that the pictures are all I can

Remembering you standing quiet in the rain as
I ran to your heart to be near
And we kissed as the sky fell in holding you close how I always held close in your fear
Remembering you running soft through the night
You were bigger and brighter and whiter than snow
Screamed at the make-believe screamed at the sky
And you finally found all your courage to let it all go

Remembering you fallen into my arms
Crying for the death of your heart
You were stone white so delicate
So lost in the cold
You were always so lost in the dark remembering you
How you used to be so drowned you were
Angels so much more than everything
oh hold for the last time then slip away quietly
Open my eyes but i never see anything

If only I had thought of the right words I could
have held on to your heart
If only I'd thought of the right words I wouldn't be breaking apart all my pictures of you

Looking so long at these pictures of you but I
never hold on to your heart
Looking so long for the words to be true but always just breaking apart my pictures of you

There was nothing in the world that I ever
wanted more
Than to feel you deep in my heart
There was nothing in the world that I ever
wanted more
Than to never feel the breaking apart
My pictures of you

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I'm alive, I swear

March 29th, 2010 (09:47 am)

I got a job, woo! Totally perfect for me, but of a drive but oh well. Also, got a new tattoo to celebrate turning 30 in a few months and my new job.

Check out my AMAZING stargazer lilyCollapse )

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Okay, here's the deal

February 24th, 2010 (12:25 pm)

A recent post from someone on my friends list got me thinking. Everyone I have on my list is there for a reason. Either we're friends or there's something about your posts that I enjoy. I read everyone's post, and though I may not always comment it's just because I don't feel I have anything constructive to say.

If you feel like you don't know me, don't know why we're friended, or typically scroll past my posts...just unfriend me. There's no reason to keep cluttering your friends list with me.

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**just posting this so I don't lose the link**

February 19th, 2010 (11:19 am)

current mood: OOoo sparkly
current song: Fiona Apple - Never Is A Promise


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Writer's Block: It's me, not you

February 19th, 2010 (11:12 am)

current mood: awake
current song: Kris Allen - Let it rain

Have you ever broken off a relationship with a friend because it was unhealthy for your self-esteem? Were you proud of your decision or did you regret it?

I haven't necessarily broken one off, but I have realized the damage and intentionally let them fizzle. By the time I get to that point with someone in my life I can't really say I'm proud of the decision per se, simply because if I'm that close with someone I'd like to think they weren't the type of person to be unhealthy for my self-esteem in the first place. However I'm not always the most wonderful judge of character. Do I regret those sorts of decisions? No. As I've stated a zillion times, and as anyone who knows me at all knows...I don't believe in regrets. Every single decision in life is a learning experience and they make us who we are. ^_^

**Side note: I'm going to start making some more public posts. There's very little in my life that needs to be filtered out. =)

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Writer's Block: Love is deaf

January 7th, 2010 (07:55 pm)

Could you spend the rest of your life with someone who had horrific taste in music? How important is it to you to share your love of music with a good friend or romantic partner?

Variety is the spice of life! I refuse to limit myself to one genre and wouldn't want a partner who did.

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December 29th, 2009 (08:29 am)

Thank you for the candle! It's beautiful and smells amazing. *hugs*

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December 11th, 2009 (03:04 pm)

I fucked up =(

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November 16th, 2009 (07:07 pm)

The sky is grey, the sand is grey, and the ocean is grey.
I feel right at home in this stunning monochrome, alone in my way.
I smoke and I drink and every time I blink I have a tiny dream.
But as bad as I am I'm proud of the fact that I'm worse than I seem.
What kind of paradise am I looking for?
I've got everything I want and still I want more.
Maybe some tiny shiny thing will wash up on the shore.
You walk through my walls like a ghost on TV
You penetrate me and my little pink heart is on its little brown raft floating out to sea.
And what can I say but I'm wired this way and you're wired to me
And what can I do but wallow in you unintentionally?
What kind of paradise am I looking for?
I've got everything I want and still I want more.
Maybe some tiny shiny key will wash up on the shore.
Regretfully, I guess I've got three simple things to say.
Why me? Why this now? Why this way?
Overtone's ringing, undertow's pulling away under a sky that is grey on sand
That is grey by an ocean that's grey.
What kind of paradise am I looking for?
I've got everything I want and still I want more.
Maybe some tiny shiny key will wash up on the shore.

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